Well the truth it fell so heavy Like a hammer through the room . Ray Lamontagne - Lessons Learned

Hello I come back!



I know my break was very long but now I am here and I can write like before,let's go.
Since I had gone there are lot of things that happened.There was a little problem with Oceane it was a call to help her and now she is fine and she smiles.She is a very good girl sometimes she is strange but one Friday we spent the evenning together and we had a lot of fun it was extraordinary I found this girl that I had lose after the problem.Now I am a little afraid because I went to visit Marceau is the school where I am going next year.I don't know what school choose,I can choose Marceau or IND and in the IND school there is my best friend and i thing that if I go to Marceau I am going to lose her and i feel it now,she has a very good feeling with a girl and when she is with here she is different and I don't know what girl is the truth one.And everytime when she is with here I feel that I am loosing here and it hurts me.But we are free and she is authorized to have fun with other people .It's not the problem so If I go to Marceau it is going to change a lot beacause I am going to met people that I don't know And i am not very sociable It's  very difficult for me to met new people .But I need to do it .I need changement.So i think I am going to chose Marceau And if our  love is the truth one we are going to survave and if it's not de truth doesn't matter.If we survave we are going to be friends when we had 45 and more.


There is an other girl Juliette she is amazing really amazing She is beautiful you know a natural beauty and know he has a boy's heart he is very strong and marveillous I love she.I learn to know she and now that i Know she I love she.It's a long history but there is a good end.


Sometimes I spent my time reading what he wrote for me.He said that he loved me and every second I did everytinhg to prouve him that it wasn't the truth and a day I think that he couldn't  support and anymore so he change his mind and he changed his love.And every second I realised that I lose everything beacause of me and only me and i would live this story for all my life to be with him and say to him that I loved him too that He helped me when i was sad .And me,I never help him I always shake him.I am sorry for that and i think if we never speak about that I am never going to forget that.I know that's the past but it hurts me a lot and sometimes it makes me cry because it's a faboulous story And I break it,He was my first love and sometimes he  still be my love.


About M,We didn't talk a lot since a lot of time,since he broke his mobile.But I realized faster that I am always going to be his SECOND choice and it's not enough to me I don't know what's enough for me but it not.Yesterday i saw him and he saw me and he said Come and I went I told me"Give me a hug"and after"I am very happy to see you "Is that only a sentence or what's that It's only him.Very sweet and nicebut I don't know what he would say but I was extremly happy.I am not going to lose.Every evenning I check my phone to see if he sent me something but it's always the same answer,no.It doesn't matter I am going to Marceau so I am going to forget him.


May be tomorrow I am going to write more but it's enough for today.

Your Peyton.L

ps:I can't live without music.Bryan Greenberg - Someday

I say good bye I need a break.

I really need it.

" Pour toutes ces âmes perdues qui ont oublié de croire en l'immensité de l'amour... "

I decided something so sometimes I am going to write in French because it's esear but when I wan't I will write in English to today it's going to be in Spanish.

Hola todo el mundo hoy es un domingo asi que un fin de semana muy tranquilo en el que he estado pensando todo el tiempo en la vida y cosas de la vida.Mañana es el cumpleaños de un nigo chico muy guay que me cae super bien la verdad.Y nose lo que siento por ese chico porque por lo que menos quiera se parece mucho a mi y muchas veces cuando dos personas se parecen es super bueno es como si estubieran echas para ir juntas pero a mi eso de parecerse no me gusta nada es como si estuviese habalndo con mi gemelo asi que entiende todo y sabes todo de mi.Eso a mi me asusta pero ya basta de habalr de chicos.Estoy comiendo como un elepfante(quiere decir que estoy comiendo muchisimo)nose porque pero necesito comer no es un comportamiento muy normal y ademas cuando veo todas esas chicas muy delgadas me da asco por que nunca sere como ellas.Asi pues ahora que estamos aqui podemos habalr de la moda...dios siempre cosas de tias.Bueno pues un dia muy normal sin nada.Ah si pues el abia mucho viento aqui algunas arboles se han caido que miedo.Y tengo una evaluacion de mates mañana y solo me se la mitad asi que ahora mismo me voy,besos. 

L.

Hi!It's the weekend.Yesterday evening I Had a sursprise party so it's was fun and I met new people and I knew new persons to.I spent time speaking with Manon because on singles days  so when we are at school we can't very speak and yesterday was the opportunity to speak.She is my best friend.
I am very happy because Mr.C come yesterday at school and with hi TYPICAL SMILE and like ever he was really nice and I am very happy because of them because  now I know he is fine.Before i didn't know.But now I know hir history,he is adopted like me so we are very similary and it's like he knows everything about me.I am a little affraid because even if we didn't speack a lot i think he can understand me more than everybody because he have the same history. The problem is that he has lots of problemes with his parents and it's disapointed and i can't understand a lot because I haven't got problems with them."The worse is have problemes with people who wants to give you love but you don't accept".I don't know what's the problem but I am very happy because he is there and my friends are there and I am with the Christ it help.

Have a good day kises L.

I spent a good day!

WHAT A GOOD DAY! MY GOD!

I have lot of laugh with my friends it is one of the best days in my life.

Tomorrow we have a surprise party for Victoire and we are going to wear "une marinière".

I love parties. I am listening music and I am preparing my self for tomorrow.

I am proud of me because I had a 17.25 in English so I am not to bad.:)

But today is not only a good day. I had a heavy heart because Mr.C didn't come to school yesterday and today so I was very worried and I learnt the new today . He has lot of problems with his parents and I don't know how and why he finish in the hospital I am very worried . But I am not her best friend so I need to wait to know more . And I wait,it's so long . I really like him is a sweet boy,the best of the best he is a nice . It's all for today.

So good night.

XOXO

AMAR ES COMBATIR

Today is a single day so I am not going to speak about my day but about music that I am listening in this moment and almost the time it's my romantic period because I listen sad music or romantic music to believe in love.I advise you to listen MANA a Mexican band listen especially:

• Ojala Pudiera Borrarte 
• Vivir Sin Aire
• Si No Te Hubieras Ido

and

•                           Alex Sintek y Ana Torroja - Duele el amor

It's Spanish music and to change a different song Rain of Mika it makes me smile and me energetic.

BIG KISS .L.

Is it really necessary Every single day You're making me more ordinary In every possible way [Mika-Rain]

Hello,today is Thursday I had a good day too so ;

I had two marks . They are quite good . Today was the day where Océane saw the P.E teacher . You don't no what I am speaking about,do you?So Océane is a special people because he is fan of teacher and now she is fan of the P.E teacher so before holidays she gave a book where she wrote what she feel for this teacher so today we were waiting for the teacher's reaction,and she did nothing she was like everyday and I think that Océane was a little disappointed and fed up.

I had good laughs with Julie she is very sweet and nice I really love her.When I am with her We are crazy so don't come when we are together.

The gay,so we are going to call him Mr.C was sad today but he spoke with me more it was nice but I can't understand him . Sometimes he is like that and other times with another way and sometimes he speak with me and sometimes he is with "his" friends . I know it's not very interesting and very serious but my problem is him and I had him I my head . I don't know what are my feelings but they are very strange and I am jealous woman even if he doesn't belong me.

It's only the beginning of my blog nothing special but is going to change I only need inspiration so just wait.

Lucia 

xoxo